Chronicles of Maria

I was tryin to get pregnant for over two years. Frustration, depression, envy, pressure, disappointment, and anxiety. I felt all those during the process. I wasn't getting any younger and i felt the need to bear a child as soon as possible. Getting married wasn't even my priority anymore. I had to have a child, I told myself.  One day, I decided to lift it all up to Him. I fervently prayed that in His time, it may happen.  My colleagues were getting pregnant one by one. Someone who's been trying for more than five years of marriage, another who's bearing their second child after a year in between, someone younger than me by two years whom I thought has no plans of having a baby yet got pregnant, and another who's also having her second child. Who's left out? Me. But you know what, it never affected me coz I learned to trust His timing. They'd often tease me and say, "sana ikaw na ang next". I tell them, "darating din ako dyan sa ta...

It was in the morning of November 16, 2019 when finally and unexpectedly, God answered our prayers.  I clearly remember that was a Saturday. It was our day off from work. No alarm clocks but my bladder told me to get up already. At that time, my period was eight days delayed but it never crossed my mind that I could be pregnant. I get my period regularly so I thought maybe it just got moved or delayed. No expectations of whatever. Few days before that, we went to Watson's to buy some cough medicine and then out of nowhere, I picked up two pregnancy kits to go with the medicine upon paying at the counter. I was thinking, maybe for future use but not for that very day. So going back, that morning when I went to relieve myself, was about to sit when I went back and grabbed a pack of that PT kit. I did what was written in the instruction, again, no expectations, or more like expecting a single line like what normally shows whenever I use PT kit. And to my surprise, in just few seconds,...